Saturday, October 31, 2009

Today, our ghosts are closer

Yesterday I attended a workshop with colleagues and students about the exhumations of mass graves in Spain that are going on now, uncovering the bones of those killed during the Civil War and also in the years after by the Franco regime, or the "nationalists." I learned from the reading we did for this workshop that the fascists had already performed their exhumations and reburials; this is not the first time that bodies have been dug up from mass graves, but previously it had only been those of nationalists killed by republicans during the war. Now, it is the victims of state-sanctioned violence who are being brought to collective sight and whose stories are being told in public after being kept secret or only whispered for decades. This is a national scenario of story-telling and performance of collective memory.

The collaborative is sponsored by the Institute for Advanced Studes at the U of MN, as one of the projects around the University Symposium topic "Bodies and Knowing." The group will meet monthly to talk about readings leading up to a conference April 23-4 of 2010.

Here is the description of the project (click the title link to get to the web page where the reading is linked if you want to download it):

Exhuming Bodies, Producing Knowledge: Collective Memory, Justice and Restitution in Contemporary Spain
"This Colloquium Series and International Conference will explore the role that the recent exhumations of mass graves from the Spanish Civil War and subsequent dictatorship have had in the emergence of the movement for the “recovery of historical memory” in Spain. At the beginning of the 21st century, over 30,000 bodies were still interred in mass graves throughout the country. Subsequently, the emergence of civic associations, created by ordinary citizens to undertake exhumations of these graves, has had an enormous impact on Spanish society. In part, the media impact of the exhumations has led to pressure to pass the “Law of Historical Memory” by the Spanish Congress in October 2007, a significant, if insufficient, step towards confronting the legacy of the war and dictatorship in contemporary Spanish society. We will analyze the multiple and complex relations between bodies and knowledge that arise in such exhumations and discuss their political, social, cultural and legal significance, in Spain and in other post-authoritarian or post-conflict settings."

The article we read, but didn't really have time to discuss at length, was "Cries and Whispers: Exhuming and Narrating Defeat in Spain Today" by Francisco Ferrándiz. First, though, we talked to each other about the history and context of these events because many of those gathered are scholars of other national contexts. Some were people born elsewhere who have been living here for many years, but have personal connections to traumatic collective histories: in Chile, Germany, the former Yugoslavia.

Ferrándiz is also the author of "Digital Memory: The Visual Recording of Mass Grave Exhumations in Contemporary Spain" Francisco Ferrándiz, Alejandro Baer. He collaborates with a big archival and testimonial project hosted at the University of California in San Diego that hosts an archive of interviews through the "Spanish Civil War Project:"
"With the assistance of these human rights organizations, since the summer of 2007 several teams of graduate students have been recording audiovisual testimonies of militants, witnesses, and victims of the Spanish Civil War and the Francoist repression."
The UCSD site exists in English and Spanish, so it's a good place to go for background. The Spanish transition to democracy after Franco's death was relatively peaceful, but one of the costs was a collective silence about what the legacy of the dictatorship. It's important to remember the difficult and painful process of creating the pacts, legal and social, that have made possible the emergence of a democratic civil society in the last thirty years, however critical of that process one might be.

After much negotiation, a law was approved a few years ago that makes possible a series of actions that allow engagement with the past: reparations or pensions for Republican soldiers, removal of at least some public monuments to fascism, and the exhumations of graves. The official site for the "Ley de la memoria histórica" explains the parts of the law. Non-governmental groups, such as the Asociación para la recuperación de la memoria histórica" have played a major role in bringing about these actions.

One of the questions that was asked at our meeting by a colleague from Spain: "what does it mean to the children of those who lived through the Civil War to confront this past and ask themselves if their parents were involved in the repression, if they were members of the Falange?" The exhumations are focusing attention now on the families of victims, but no family in Spain is untouched by these stories. Stories and speculation surround the fate of one of the most famous of these victims, whose body does not lie alone but with others murdered with him: this week begins the exhumation of the possible grave site of that of poet Federico García Lorca, and , in a story has even made The New Yorker. Author Jon Lee Anderson writes,
"In a recent story I wrote about the drama, the late poet’s niece, Laura Garcia Lorca (who is also the director of the Federico Garcia Lorca Foundation, which exercises control over the poet’s literary estate), told me that she and her relatives didn’t want Lorca’s body moved because they feared his exhumation would become an unseemly spectacle, “a circus.” Laura shuddered as she conjured up the image of Lorca’s bones being exhibited on YouTube."


It's not just the dead whose memories were stolen; it was also the living. You MUST read this post by entrenomadas about "los niños robados durante el franquismo" [children stolen during Franco's regime].

Friday, October 30, 2009

"Dónde... está... la biblioteca?"

What comedy shows make you laugh out loud? The Simpsons? Glee? Big Bang Theory?

My new favorite comedy show is Community. Maybe it's because I work on a university campus, or because I teach Spanish, but I think it's also the quality of the writing and acting. The ensemble cast is made up a really talented comedians.

Here's a bit about studying Spanish:


Here is a fab remix by DJ StevecPorter of some bits from the show.

Monday, October 26, 2009

Tonight's drinking game? take a shot every time you hear "best group ever"

(cross-posted at SYTYCD Social)
Hi, folks! I am doing my SYTYCD homework for tonight's "get to know your top 20" episode. I'm very glad the producers decided to give us this special show so we don't start seeing the dancers get eliminated until we have clapped eyes on all of them and seen them dance at least once! I'm not even bothered by the idea that the judges will do the first eliminations, because (repeat after me) this is a scripted reality show in which we are being told stories and led to believe things that are not necessarily true! I'm willing to kick back and gossip for a few weeks before I start voting.

So, I have dutifully watched all the audition episodes, even though I missed the accelerated rhythm of the summer-style audition frenzy. One benefit, to my mind, in starting the show this late in the fall season is that I got to enjoy America's Best Dance Crew and SYTYCD Canada before the S6's actual competition gets underway: fewer distractions.

Let's hear it for the show where dancers do their own choreography: I love how ABDC showcases the crews' responses to challenges. We Are Heroes and Vogue Evolution were my favorite crews. This season, DWTS is not even in the picture for me as a dance show, no matter how great my love of ballroom dancing is, because I feel about Donny Osmond just about the way I feel about Toom DeLay: both of them trigger the gag reflex. Cannot. Watch.

So, here's how I have prepared for tonight:
  • Watched all the audition episodes and read all the recaps hither and yon? check!
  • Watched the interviews with the Top 20? check! who do you think has the most annoying verbal tics? who is unexpectedly intelligent or charming? what is that "star quality" that the judges are casting for which means that some more proficient dancers didn't make the cut?
  • Compared STYCYD Canada to U.S. version? check! Tara Jean was not my first choice, but any of the top four dancers was worthy of winning in my eyes, and I really enjoyed seeing different choreographers. Cat Deeley is still the hostess with the mostest for me!
  • Mourned the departure of Mia Michaels from the show? check. Count me as one of the people who thinks this a huge loss, although not fatal. the show will go on, but I will really really miss Mia's contributions as a judge, a choreographer, and as an inspiration to the dancers themselves.
  • updated my Twitter feed to make sure I get every gossipy tidbit from past and present contestants, judges, and choreographers, fans and bloggers? check! I'll be watching the live-blogging, tweeting, and the show at the same time.

Friday, October 23, 2009

How a flu virus reproduces (NPR story)

Using animation tools from Zirus. My poor baby has the flu, so miserable!

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Shiatsu, fibromyalgia, and altering the flow

The first time I went to a bodyworker for something other than Swedish-style massage was when I was writing my dissertation. I had been experiencing the symptoms of fibromyalgia for ten years, but in my visits to a variety of doctors I had been treated with bafflement, indifference, sexual harrasment, and a few frank admissions that they could find nothing wrong with me. I gave up on the doctors. Although something in me knew that my condition was not just a psychological disorder was causing the physical pain, the stress of doing a PhD is a highly competitive and emotionally unsuportive environment, the toll of family woes, my "type A" personality, all were certainly aggravating factors. At a certain point, I didn't care what the cause was, I was just hoping for some relief. I don't even remember how I found her, but I started going to see a woman named Dorothea who lived in north Berkeley, close to the border with Albany. It took about 45 minutes to walk to her house--a time in which I could simply move and breathe and pay attention to the flowers--and when I got there, I was treated with gentleness, respect and kindness. That, in and of itself, was a balm. But she also had hands that knew how to find the sore points, and how to use pressure and stretching to bring some relief from the pain. She gave me suggestions for gentle exercises I could do myself to try to bring my body back to a sense of well-being, bit by bit. During weekly sessions with her, my writing imagination opened up and I began to work on my thesis with more joy.

I had a powerful experience during one of our sessions. I was lying on my back and she was working on one of my arms, holding it up but trying to get me to let it hang without helping her hold it up. "Just let go," she said. It was a surprise for me to even realize how hard it was for me to just let my arm hang in her supporting hand. As she worked, I felt what seemed to be a surge of electrical current flow through my body, as if I were a tuning fork, coming to vibrate in my chest and across my face. I exploded into sobs, as something inside released, physically and emotionally, or both. I was frightened at this new experience but also exhiliarated.

Dorothea didn't label this flow "chi" or try to explain what had happened; she just made room for it, and treated it as a natural and expected result of what we were doing. For me, it was wild, somewhat scary, but powerful. Whatever it was, it was a revelation that my body was carrying lots of feelings locked up in muscle memory, and that it might be possible to release them and let them flow.

Many years later, when I started going to the student clinic of a shiatsu school and learned more about the ideas behind Traditional Chinese Medicine and its influence on Japanese body practices, I had another framework for understanding this kind of experience. I had to stop getting shiatsu for several years because of the cost (it's not reimbursed by my health plan), but I just started again this weekend, with a session with a student. This time, I was ready for the releases, the pop of muscles letting go of their clampdown on my spine, and the flow of energy into unexpected channels.

This summer, I cleaned my entire house from top to bottom. I purged my closets, gave away clothes and shoes I didn't wear, books, objects that were stashed in drawers and forgotten. I'm recycling, upcycling, rethinking my relationship to the objects in my life. I'm seeing a therapist again and looking into consulting a work coach, or at least becoming more mindful in my approach to work. I'm ready to do the work in my body and spirit to open up those places where old feelings are still locked up, contributing to the pain and drain of a worn-out adrenal system that has left me exhausted and hurting for way too long. It may be true that there is a genetic predisposition for fibromyalgia (I'm not the only one in my family who has it); it is beginning to look as if a retrovirus may also be a trigger; the body's own feedback systems keep the whole cycle moving on its own: but I can't stop working if I want to live with less pain and more ease.

Friday, October 16, 2009

Mason Jennings, "The Field"


Local musician Mason Jennings has been on the verge of super-stardom for years, but maybe it's just as well that he's been more of a cult favorite because it has let him live a normal life and make great music for appreciative fans. His latest album, "Blood of Man" has been getting heavy play on The Current, our local public radio music station, and we happened to hear it a few days ago on the drive to school. I was familiar with the music, but this time I really listened to the lyrics. By the time we got to school, I was sobbing. I couldn't help but remember the time last year when one of my students told me her only child had been killed in Iraq. Eight years of horror and wasted lives.
"I don't want no victory, I just want you back."

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Sounds like a good idea to me!

As I get closer to #52, I am looking at a card some dear friends gave me on my last birthday:

Life should NOT be
a journey to the grave
with the intention of arriving safely in a
pretty and well-preserved body,
but rather to skid in sideways,
chocolate in one hand,
wine in the other,
thoroughly used up,
totally worn out and loudly proclaiming...
"Woo Hoo! What a ride"

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

It has been one of those days when I wish I were Jon Stewart

Today I had one of those days in which I had to be assertive without being aggressive, stand up for rigor in class and principles in the workplace, but not be whiney, nagging or self-pitying. I find this an extreme challenge and now I'm exhausted. So, here's Jon Stewart, giving free expression to his exasperation with the state of the news today. I feel better already.
The Daily Show With Jon StewartMon - Thurs 11p / 10c
CNN Leaves It There
www.thedailyshow.com
Daily Show
Full Episodes
Political HumorRon Paul Interview

Sunday, October 11, 2009

National Coming Out Day!


To all my family and friends who have come out to me and the world, you make the world a better place for all of us: thank you!
(via BitchPhd)

Thursday, October 08, 2009

New report and upcoming panel on "THE ECONOMIC IMPACT OF IMMIGRANTS IN MINNESOTA"

New Report by U of MN professor Katherine Fennelly and Humphrey Institute graduate student researcher Anne Huart.

THE ECONOMIC IMPACT OF IMMIGRANTS IN MINNESOTA

To download a copy of the report please visit this link:


"We have all heard public and private debates regarding the costs and
contributions of immigrants in Minnesota and in the United States, but
too few of these conversations have been informed by facts. To rectify
this, the Minnesota Business Immigrant Coalition asked U of MN faculty Katherine
Fennelly and Anne Huart to review and synthesize the best, unbiased
research on this contentious issue. The result is in the enclosed
report. Please feel free to share it with others. One of the links is
to the full color report; the second is to a printable version with
lesscolor. If you would like to order full-color print copies at $15 each,
please contact Ms. Mary Lou Middleton at garza001@umn.edu."

PANEL ON THE ECONOMIC IMPACTS OF IMMIGRANTS IN MINNESOTA

11/12/09
4:00pm-6:00pm
Cowles Auditorium, Humphrey Institute, U of M

4:00 Welcome
Brian Atwood, Dean, Hubert H. Humphrey Institute of Public Affairs

4:10 Introduction
Bill Blazar, Senior VP, Business Development and Public Affairs
MN Chamber of Commerce

4:20 The Need for Credible Research on Immigrants:
Rodolfo Gutierrez, Executive Director HACER

4:30 The Ageing of Minnesotans
Tom Gillaspy, MN State Demographer

4:45 The Economic Impacts of Immigrants in MN
Katherine Fennelly , Professor, Humphrey Institute

5:00 Do Mexican Workers Compete With or Complement US Workers? :
Raymond Robertson, Macalester College

5:15 Closing Comments
Ana Luisa Fajer Flores, Consul of Mexico in Minnesota

5:25 Q&A

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

SYTYCD S6 is going to be hot!

10-Dance World Champion Iveta Lukosiute

Krumper Russell Ferguson

They two of them dancing together in the Vegas round:

Saturday, October 03, 2009

Celeriac is in season

One of the treasures last week in my CSA box from Featherstone Farms was celeriac (also called celery root, or céléri rave in French). It's a round root vegetable, about the size of a softball, maybe a little bigger.
The surface is brown, warty and tough, rugged with rooty knobs. For some reason, it inspires people to think of trolls! The Dutch use it in their hearty soup stammpot, while the French make céléri rémoulade with a dressing that combines mayonnaise and mustard, and maybe capers or cornichons, depending on your taste.

You can boil it whole in the skin, which takes about 45 minutes, but I'm much too impatient for that, so I like to peel it and boil the pieces. Instead of trying to peel it with a paring knife, it's best to remove the tough peel like a pineapple, by slicing from the top down along the sides. Take your sharpest chef's knife, or even better, a long serrated bread knife (I use my Ginzu knife that I bought at the State Fair from that one guy whose sales patter is a tour-de-force of performance art).

Slice off the top and bottom ends so you can sit it flat and it won't slip. Then, slice from the top down along the side to remove the tough outer layer, revealing the pale fragrant flesh underneath. I love the smell!

The texture is not quite like that of a potato or a jicama, and not quite the same as a turnip's. The odor is between that of fresh celery stalks and celery seed. If you use a knife that is not stainless steel, it will discolor faster and maybe take on a metallic taste, so avoid that. If you're not going to cook it right away, or if you are using matchstick sized pieces raw in a salad, in the French style, put the pieces in a bowl of water with a splash of lemon juice or vinegar to keep them from discoloring.

I just chopped it into chunks and put it in a pot of boiling water immediately. It takes about 8-10 minutes to cook through, or, you can wait until the water comes back to a boil, put a lid on the pot and turn off the heat, and let it sit until cooked through while you do something else.

The cooked pieces can be eaten plain, speared out of the pot, but it's commonly dressed with mustardy vinaigrette, mashed with potatoes or carrots, or used just about any way you'd use a potato. Save the broth for vegetable stock or use in a soup for a subtle flavor.

This NPR story by Jack Staub (from the series Kitchen Window) is a loving ode to celeriac, and has a recipe for celeriac french fries! But these recipes look more my style (I'm deathly afraid of frying things in oil), especially the hearty soups. Celeriac also pairs well with green apples or pears. I think I'll use it with some of the fresh tarragon Loren gave me.

Thursday, October 01, 2009

On the Island of Emotion!

The Wikepedia entry on pain says
"This article is about physical pain. For pain in a broader sense, see Suffering." For some reason, this makes me laugh.


Sally Cruikshank animated this bit for Sesame Street--I love it!

Years ago, I noticed that when a big weather front came through, I'd stop sleeping. Later, I paid attention and recognized that when there was a dramatic change in the weather, such as the one we're having now--when the first wintery cold front and rain moves in-- I'd have an increase in fatigue, pain, and other fibromyalgia symptoms. Poking around, I've found that there is research that shows that many people with arthritic conditions, depression or migraine also feel these changes. It's not clear if it is a specific weather factor, such as the drop in barometric pressure, or the change itself, as some who study migraines believe, that triggers the increase in pain, but the correlations are unmistakable. Over the years, I've come to recognize those times of the year and weather conditions that trigger the worst flares, and the beginning of the heating season in MN, my body goes kablooie.

For the last several days, I've been a hurting individual: to the usual stiffness, joint aches, tight muscle bands, the flare has added stabbing pains: it feels as if someone stabbed me with an ice-pick behind my eye, another in front of my ear, and another at the base of my skull, burning pains down my back to under my shoulder-blade, to that the spot I named H.A.L.; throbbing pains --pressure behind my eye and ear on the right side. My right ear feels itchy and hot, there are knots of pain where my lymph nodes lie under my jaw. The back pain is almost unnoticeable through the intensity, the electric shooting pains in my hands and feet feel 'normal.'

Monday it got so I had to focus just to speak clearly. Grading papers, writing for a deadline, and peering at the computer all made it worse. I am so used to sucking it up that I plow on until I feel as if I'm going to collapse. I can do things like let the dishes pile up, stay in bed later or slow down at work (I even canceled classes one day) but when the weather is moving through, I just have to hunker down and wait it out.