Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Rock in Latin America, Latin rock, rock en tu idioma, whaddaya call it?

In class today, we talked about the history of rock and roll (both in English and in Spanish) because our topic was rock music in Latin America (sometimes categorized as "rock en espanyol" and not to be confused with "Latin rock").

Just imagine me as Jack Black in School of Rock, with my flowchart on the blackboard.

I played some boogie woogie and jump blues cuts for the class to show them some of the original sounds, including Big Mama Thornton's version of "Hound Dog" which has a funky latin beat going on. We also recalled the Cuban influence on early music in the U.S. via New Orleans (the cinquillo rhythmic cell was the heart of ragtime). Louie Louie was a cha cha, says Ned Sublette, the author of Cuba and its Music: From the First Drums to the Mambo. The story of "Louie Louie" (no comma) is a version of the history of rock and roll: white musicians made the bucks off black musicians' work--and at least some the roots are in what Jelly Roll Morton called "the Spanish tinge"--the clave from Cuba, that is. Richard Berry, a black musician originally from New Orleans, wrote and recorded the song in the mid-fifties, using the bass line he heard in a song called "El loco Cha Cha." A lot of up-and-coming bands in the Northwest played it, and the version that hit No. 1 was by the Kingsmen, a white band, in 1963. In 1989, Berry played a gig in California that was filmed by folks who want to make a movie about the song. I was bummed that YouTube was down today so I couldn't show the clip (what does that say about teaching now?)

I reminded them that Santana used to be a jam rocker with a percussion player from Nicaragua who mixed up the Afro-Latin roots with the blues in a new way, not just the guy who had the comeback song "Smooth." I grew up on Santana's music--too young to go to Woodstock the year their first album came out, but he was from my home town, so we were loyal fans. My high school crowd also listened to Sly and the Family Stone, WAR ( "Lowriders") Tower of Power--the funky Bay Area sound.

So I used the projector to put up the Wikipedia page on the history of Rock and Roll because I wanted them to see how different the English and the Spanish versions of the history are (although they both have their qualities). They started to laugh. I couldn't see what they were looking at, but then they pointed out that between the time when I found the link this morning and class, someone had edited the page so that the first line was "kevin is a penis." Oh, I love the Internets as a teaching device!

UPDATE: VivirLatino waxes nostalgic about "rock en tu idioma"

Monday, November 13, 2006

Los Lobos

anselma/bestel mar - Rowwen Heze and Los Lobos

I love Los Lobos! Here we see a meeting of the accordion-roots of a lot of conjunto/northern mexican musics.
Rowen Hezze (or Heze) is apparently a Dutch band that sings in the Limburg variant of Dutch (from the south). I googled their name, and came up with tons of pages in Dutch, and one post about how they opened for the Rolling Stones. I was reminded of a film I rented recently, Schulze gets the blues, a masterpiece of cinematography, and a story about how music can change your life.
I'd like to write a lot more about the film, or anything else for that matter, but I have just finished grading 30 student journals, and must now finish grading 20 papers and 20 journals from another class (I'm about halfway through that stack). Then we'll be in the home stretch of the semester. Now, if I could only decide which books to order for a new class I'll be teaching in the Spring.

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Ellen Willis: hope and action

This image is from the Women's Liberation Studies Archives for Action Catalogue.
I was very sad to read the news of Ellen Willis' death over at Michael Berube's blog. I was also a fan of her writing, but I admit I didn't really know that much about her political history. With the post Ellen Willis presente! , Bitch l Lab does us the great service of rounding up links to the many tributes to Willis, and to places where we can read some of her writing, such as last year's wonderful essay "Ghosts, Fantasies and Hope" (in Dissent). Her home page at NYU where she was a professor of journalism, after a pioneering career as music critic and essayist, has many links to her essays as well. I want to learn more about her involvement with Redstockings, which she co-founded with Shulamith Firestone. RadGeek's post reminds us of the importance of direct action as well as the kinds of electoral work we've just witnessed. We have to remember this history, with all its mistakes, because how else will we learn?
I'm going to take a walk down the block to the bookstores and the library later this morning to see if I can find copies of her books. I won't have time to read them until I've graded the 20 papers, and read the 50 student journals I managed to have all due at the same time, but I like to have a destination for my walk.
Update: I found used copies of No More Nice Girls: Countercultural Essays and Beginning to See the Light: Sex, Hope, and Rock-and-Roll. While I was at it, I got Joanna Russ' To Write Like a Woman and Nancy K Miller's Getting Personal.

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Guinness meets Bella!

Happy dance!

The kids are doing a pre-Halloween/post-birthday Happy Dance.
Some of the things I'm happy about today:
Keith Ellison is not only an African-American and a Muslim, he is an advocate for peace who ran a positive campaign in the face of race-baiting and dirty tricks. He has the support of a broad coalition of people who respect him for his out-spoken, fearless, and compassionate views, and for the hard work he has done representing the poor in his district.
Organic farmer Jon Tester defeated Republican Conrad Burns in Montana in one of the two close Senate races that gives the majority to the Democrats in the Senate as well as the house. I am thrilled that someone who has been successful at turning a family farm operation into a success by making the change to organic farming is going to Washington. He has a perspective on fair trade and the experience of farming that could really make a difference.

Ever wonder what it's like to be a poll worker? SFMike at Civic Center gives us the behind-the-scenes scoop. And yet, it works, in its messy way.

A little about Eliot Spitzer, the new Gov. of New York, who has successfully prosecuted organized crime, of both the Gambino family and Wall Street varieties. He will shake things up in Albany!

Claire McCaskill won in Missouri -YES!

This falls into the category of why I love San Francisco so much! There will be a lot of hysterical talk on the right about San Francisco values, and frenzy about the fact that the next Speaker of the House has a functioning uterus, but let's not forget that in SF itself, a lot of people see Pelosi as not bold enough. But that's because they aren't afraid. We need people who aren't afraid to stand up to the vicious attacks of the moneyed interests who will try to smear and intimidate them, as was the case with Chris Daly. Sarah Low Daly's speech on election night says what so many of us say in the privacy of our own homes, in those moments when we yell at the TV set.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Robert (unindicted co-conspirator) Gates

is Bush's nominee to replace Rumsfeld.
(Whoa! Flashback to Iran-Contra, dude)

Today in class we warmed up by talking about voting and elections. That led to a conversation about who Daniel Ortega is, what was the Sandinista revolution, what was Iran-Contra, what was going on in Central and South America in the 70s. These kids were not even born yet when some of this was happening, but the same freakin' criminals are revolving through the administration. LondonYank over at DKos calls it Bush's Felon Job Replacement Program:
"Bush II must be an inspiration to criminals everywhere that they can be tomorrow's leaders! Who better to preach patriotism, democracy and human rights than those who committed espionage, perjury, fraud and covered up torture and massacres?"

Seriously, read Senator Harkin's testimony in the 1991 Congressional record in opposition to Gates' nomination as CIA Director, from the Congressional Record:
"...Mr. President, I also have doubts and questions about Mr. Gates' role in the secret intelligence sharing operation with Iraq. Robert Gates served as assistant to the Director of the CIA in 1981 and as Deputy Director for Intelligence for 1982 to 1986. In that capacity he helped develop options in dealing with the Iran-Iraq war, which eventually involved into a secret intelligence liaison relationship with Saddam Hussein's Iraq. Gates was in charge of the directorate that prepared the intelligence information that was passed on to Iraq. He testified that he was also an active participant in the operation during 1986. The secret intelligence sharing operation with Iraq was not only a highly questionable and possibly illegal operation, but also may have jeopardized American lives and our national interests. The photo reconnaissance, highly sensitive electronic eavesdropping and narrative texts provided to Saddam, may not only have helped him in Iraq's war against Iran but also in the recent gulf war. Saddam Hussein may have discovered the value of underground land lines as opposed to radio communications after he was give our intelligence information. That made it more difficult for the allied coalition to get quick and accurate intelligence during the gulf war. Further, after the Persian Gulf war, our intelligence community was surprised at the extent of Iraq's nuclear program. One reason Saddam may have hidden his nuclear program so effectively from detection was because of his knowledge of our satellite photos. What also concerns me about that operation is that we spend millions of dollars keeping secrets from the Soviets and then we give it to Saddam who sells them to the Soviets. In short, the coddling of Saddam was a mistake of the first order."

There's plenty more. Alternet just ran a three-part series by journalist Robert Parry, who investigated many of these stories in the 80s. (Read parts I, II and III). His account of the original "October Surprise" is a reminder that the roots of today's Iraq war go way, way back.

But what I heard on NPR today was a reporter saying "uh huh" while a former CIA employee of Gates praised him for being pragmatic and "an excellent bureaucrat."
UPDATE: Democracy Now talks to journalist Robert Parry and former CIA analyst Mel Goodman about Robert Gates' shady record.

Rumsfeld says goodbye, and we say goodbye to Rumsfeld

Kingdom Hospital - Na Na Hey Hey Kiss Him Goodbye

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

OK, folks, this is it.

Today is a day to turn to positive voices, to remember how hard so many people are working for constructive change. The folks over at Dharma Bums have a lovely post today that inspires me. We can focus on the media hysteria or we can look at all of the ways that ordinary people are also working hard to make a difference. I choose to spend today looking for inspiring examples.
My voting place is the nearby Unitarian Church, and the folks who volunteer there are always sweet and efficient. I have never had to wait in a really long line, probably because I am able to go when a lot of other people are at work, but that may be different today because I expect the turnout to be HUGE in my area. I am so excited because it looks very likely that Keith Ellison will be my representative to Congress, Amy Klobuchar will be my next Senator, and Mark Ritchie will succeed in his goal of bringing the office of Secretary of State back to a Minnesota tradition of clean elections. Many folks I know have done some volunteering, hosted a house party to help people get to know candidates better, of participated in some kind of public action. Even a friend who is a self-described conservative evangelical Christian has spent the last year working almost full time with Impeach for Peace to persuade his friends that their values are not being represented by the folks currently in office.

Tonight I'll keep the TV and the radio off, and help my daughter with her Science Fair experiment. I can check the local election results at MN Campaign Report Here is a picture of my polling place--I didn't have to wait in a line, and the folks who work there have done this before, so all went smoothly.

Sunday, November 05, 2006

"Teacher Idealist"

Apparently I come out as eNFj on those personality sorter dealies. Surprise, surprise.

Saturday, November 04, 2006

Varmints

(homage to Twisty)
A squirrel, perhaps this very squirrel, managed to chew its way through the wood of the soffit under the gutters last week. We discovered this when we heard the scrabbling and scampering. It sounded as if it were coming from the front of the building, so I went outside. I saw the hole, with the squirrel head poking out. We looked at each other for a while. I expected him to take a sip of his coffee, he looked so at home.

Various friends told me tales of squirrel invasions past, of chewed-through insulation leaving live wires and terrible fire danger, of hundreds, no thousands! of dollars paid to trap and release squirrels. Here's a great video about squirrel removal by some of the folks over there at the MN Stories link to the right.
A few years ago, a squirrel had chewed through the plastic panel of one of my window air-conditioners and made its way into my place, storing hazelnuts all over the house until I found him and chased him out. I managed to squirrel-proof my place, but this woman had a different problem. By the way, when you click on the video at this link, you have to sit through an ad by another varmint. We're hoping to remove him from the governor's mansion this Tuesday.

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

What's going on in Oaxaca?

There is a lot I want to write about Oaxaca, but work is relentless this week. So this brief post is a way of saving some links to news sources, and getting started.
If you read Spanish, Mexican newspaper La Jornada has a detailed report on the battle in the streets of Oaxaca between federal police (the PFP) and citizens. An editorial in La Jornada reports that the people of Oaxaca have united to repel the militarization of the struggle. But other sources from Oaxaca and in the mainstream press characterize the situation as the forces of law and order trying to quell a mob, stirred up by "outside agitators" who have taken over the city. Who to believe? Many people who have been to Oaxaca know it as a beautiful historically fascinating tourist destination. It is also one of the poorest states in Mexico, one in which indigenous people continue to suffer neglect and oppression at the hands of a regional oligarchy, that is supported by the PRI in alliance with the PAN parties on the national level. Over the last few years,those who have demanded change have been met with political assassinations, disappearances. Rape and torture have been reported at the hands of police and paramilitary thugs.

For the person who wants to know more about what is happening, and understand the context of the struggle, US mainstream media sources are useless because of the intense focus on the upcoming elections and the lamentable state of international reporting in general. The coded language of "anarchy" and "restoring order" along with the lack of context make it appear that violent protesters are disturbing the peace. So we have to turn to alternative sources such as Democracy Now! where we can read an interview with journalist and educator-activist Gustavo Esteva. Global Exchange publishes this timeline and information on how to take action.
Why are the teachers on strike? what is APPO? why do they want the governor to resign? what relation does this have to the recent elections? What role has the U.S. government taken in this situation? What do the people think?
The media sources in Mexico are also highly politicized and partisan, Global Voices has a good round-up on the coverage, including that of bloggers of various perspectives.


NarcoNews posts material in both English and Spanish and is a good place to return for ongoing coverage

IndyBay, a Bay Area independent media aggregator carries news about US solidarity actions in support of the people of Oaxaca, as well as news updates.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Meet Louis

We had a wonderful birthday party (a surprise!) after the last performance of the play. Hopped up on cake, the kids improvised costumes and filmed each other imitating Madonna talking in a fake British accent about how she stole a baby (!). Good thing I still have a password on this computer, or the stuff would end up on YouTube. R. is twelveteen.

Louis is the newest member of the family. He is a birthday present. I am glad he will be living at the farm with the guys, because my cat would plot his demise.

Friday, October 27, 2006

Scorpio birthdays and Halloween


Today, my daughter announced to me that this is the last day that she is 11. Tomorrow is her 12th birthday!
Last night was also her stage debut, and there will be performances tonight and tomorrow as well. I am in awe of the director's ability to work with kids, channel their energy and creativity, and make it fun. Her grandmother arrives today and will get to see the performance too.
I, the Home Ed flunkout, am sewing the Halloween costume (the stuff in the stores is so inappropriate for girls, it makes me really mad), and it is going to be great if I can get it finished in time, between grading papers, working on website upgrades, and all the other la di da of the job. The weather is gorgeous right now, and we'll have a big pre-Halloween party for kids and adults at the farm.
My 49th birthday is next Saturday. We are a double Scorpio household, with our birthdays bookending Halloween and the Days of the Dead. It's a great time to look back over the year: what have we done? what are we grateful for? what do we wish for the year ahead?
My Free Will Astrology horoscope for the week suggests this is a time of regeneration, so I want to think about being a phoenix today.

Monday, October 23, 2006

Emocionada.

ChasingMoksha over at Hah! tagged me with the picture meme. Thank you! I intend to repeat this exercise a few more times, because coming up with ONLY 8 images that amaze me, eight amazing images is like trying to answer the question "what's your favorite book?" No way to choose. But here are eight to start.


The girl is going to be twelve in one week. I'm purely amazed.



This is a picture from the summer of her grandparents in Portalrubio in Spain. The fact that we are in each other's lives at all is something for which I give thanks.



The Golden Gate Bridge was a fact of my childhood landscape. I miss seeing the Bay, the bridge, the fog. I miss walking on the beachers, over the hills, through Golden Gate Park. I need to go back soon.


I saw this enormous stone carving in Mexico City before I ever saw a picture of it. It made my hair stand on end. It still does.




This is an image I've had on a postcard since I was a child. I never paid attention to who the artist was or what the image was about. I just liked how the woman was so absorbed in her reading that she didn't seem to care that she was riding on the back of a giant carp. That was me, and it still is. To be able to share another person's world through words continues to amaze me.

Now I know that it is called Mitate no kinko and was painted in 1765 by Suzuki Haronobu, the artist who revolutionized printing techniques during the Ukiyo-e (Floating World) period in Japan.



This painting by Frida Kahlo is the first painted image I know of in which the viewer is positioned to see a woman's own body from that woman's point of view, without the use of a mirror.


In my dreams, I can dance like Judith Jamison. I saw her in "Cry" with the Alvin Ailey company before she stopped performing.

Isn't this amazing? I have seen an eclipse. I love being able to see these pictures of the universeCrown of the Sun.

I guess I'm supposed to tag someone, but I don't really know that many bloggers and i feel shy about tagging someone out of the blue. So I'll invite anyone who reads to think about doing their own image gathering, and if you do it, let me know, OK?

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Caribbean music (with Celia Cruz morsel)

Only five more midterms to grade!!! I'm gettting ready for a for class tomorrow in which we are going to talk about the roots of Caribbean music.
Here is Celia Cruz on TV with Sonora Matancera. I saw here in Berkeley when she was already in her seventies, but she sang and danced hard for at least two hours. Amazing.

Professor Zero turned me on Radio Batanga's music site, where one can listen to streaming audio in all genres of latin popular music. It's a wonderful way to find about about the latest hits or about songs that are old favorites. Although it's a commercial website, with lots of ads and mostly devoted to the popular music biz, it doesn't limit its playlists to the top of the charts. There are interviews, reviews, and links to videos.

But to learn more about the history of the music, and particularly or music of Africa and the African Diaspora (including African roots music in the Americas and its influence on music in Africa today) , Afropop Worldwide is great. They have archived feature articles, book and CD reviews, streaming audio playlists, and news from all over the music world. I find the site easy to use and generous. If you buy tunes from them, it helps support their mission of spreading knowledge about this music.

Their online music store, a great place to find music from all over the world and buy it without leaving most of your money in the hands of corporate distritutors, is run through Calabash Music, which bills itself as a Fair Trade Music site. Rather than organizing by musical genre, they divide the world geographically, and North American and South America are subdivided by country.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Fast Swing Dancing - ULHS 2004

Ultimate Lindy Hop Showdown, fast lindy. Sweet!

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Who wrote the letter?

Yesterday, B****PhD posted a story from her new home in Orange County about a letter that was mailed to 14,000 foreign-born Latino voters who were registered as Democrats. The letter was in Spanish, and the brief AP story quoted it as saying that immigrants who voted would be commiting a crime. Much discussion ensued in the comments section and on other blogs about the difference between illegal alien, immigrant, naturalized citizen, ID requirements in different states, voter intimidation, etc, but most of the discussion was based on a brief AP story that did not cite the original Spanish text. Today, this story is big news in California because it turns out that the letter was sent by a Republican candidate for office, Tan Nguyen, that it was even more clearly intimidating than the brief quotation had suggested. Not only did the letter state (falsely) that it is illegal for an immigrant to vote (immigrants who are naturalized citizens and registered to vote have every right to vote), it said that they could be deported, that a computer tracking system was being set up that anti-immigrant groups could use to track them down, and not to believe any politician who claimed otherwise. Now even the California GOP is calling for Tan to withdraw from the race. Fortunately, recipients of the letter complained, the case was investigated, and the effort has been publicly denounced. (UPDATE: GOP CALLS FOR CANDIDATE TO LEAVE THE RACE) But it does go to show why the stories about voter intimidation and fraud that I wrote about in earlier posts are still relevant.

But that's not why I had to write about this story. As we scholars know (ahem!) one should never work from a translation, if possible. So today, when I was finally able to find pdf files of both the Spanish letter and the English translation posted by the liberaloc , I discovered that the letter was signed.....Sergio Ramirez! Whoa! Did someone pull that name out of a hat, or was the author of this vicious political hoax a fan of the Nicaraguan novelist and former Sandinista leader?

Seriously, here is an essay in English by Sergio Ramirez about the upcoming elections in Nicaragua, a country once much in the news in the US, but now almost completely absent. And here is an essay in Spanish, one of the many articles archived on his web page, in which he looks back on Nicaraguan history on the occasion of the death of Ronald Reagan in 2004, and talks about what has been accomplished and what still needs to be done. I saw Sergio Ramirez give a talk about Ruben Dario in Managua when I attended a conference on Central American literature. I have a picture of him standing next to Ernesto Cardenal that I should dig up and scan so I can post it here. Now I must go read that novel I've had sitting on my shelf for years.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Tina Modotti


Well, I'm all excited that my mother will be visiting from SF, but now I've discovered that there is a fabulous show, Mexico as Muse: Tina Modotti and Edward Weston at the SFMOMA! Since I doubt I can sneak away before the show ends Jan 7, I will have to make do with this delightful interactive program, and look for this book in the library: Patricia Alber's Fire, Shadows,Snow: The Life of Tina Modotti. Albers uncovered a cache of letters and photographs which almost doubled the known number of photos by Tina Modotti. As with Frida Kahlo, for years Tina Modotti was primarily known for her beauty as a model for painters and photographers, for her love affairs, as a figure of scandal. The work of feminist art critics and scholars brought new attention to Modotti as an artist and photographer. The 1996 Tate Gallery show pairing Tina Modotti's work with that of Frida was a part of the revival of interest in the lives and art of both women, and in the Mexican artistic and intellectual world of the twenties and thirties.

Because Frida Kahlo and Diego Rivera began their courtship at her parties, she appears in the film Frida in her "femme fatale" version, Ashley Judd dancing the tango with Salma Hayak. There are several biographies of Modotti, but she remains a controversial figure, and biographers are still having trouble seeing how the pieces of her life fit together.

The real Tina Modotti (1896-1942) was born in Udine, in the north of Italy. Her family was very poor, and Tina had to leave school to work in a factory when she was a child. Like so many Italians at the turn of the century, her family sought to survive through immigration, first to Austria and then to the US. Her father came over in 1906, and brought the family in stages later. This is more or less the story of both my great-grandfathers on my mother's side, who were stone masons working in Greenwich, Conn, and who brought my grandparents over when they were young children in 1905 and 1906. North Beach in San Francisco (my home town) was where Tina arrived in 1913 as a teenager. She worked in a shirt factory, and then as a seamstress but also joined the community of artists, acting in theater. My mother has a friend who has collected the oral histories of elderly Italians who lived in North Beach. I wonder where Tina lived in San Francisco?

Tina married an artist, and they went to Los Angeles where she acted in silent films, often having to supply her own costumes, typecast as the exotic femme fatale. She wanted to learn photography, and began taking lessons from Edward Weston. They became lovers. When her husband went to Mexico City, he wrote about the excitement and artistic ferment there. She was to join him, but he died before she arrived. Weston joined her there, and it was in Mexico- the "Mexican Renaissance"-- that she produced the body of her photographic work. Elena Poniatowska, author of a novelized version of Tina's life, writes about how Tina was scandalous to Mexicans, even among the scandalous Mexican artists and revolutionaries, because she lived with a man without marrying him, posed nude for artists, and went out with men to bars. When I first went to Mexico City, there were still signs prohibiting women from entering bars, and it was assumed that any women who did go in were there to do business of some kind.

Weston and Modotti were partners; in exchange for learning to be a photographer, she ran his studio, and eventually they were doing jobs together. Then she began getting her own jobs, and displaying her own work. Almost all of her pictures were taken while she lived in Mexico City. Albers was able to gain access to a set of photos and documents that were among the things kept by her husband's family; the number of her known photos has grown from around 250 to 400. This photo, of a puppeteer's hands, is on display in the Minneapolis Institute of Art. To look at more of her photos, check out this set of links on the OCAIW site.

After Weston's departure, she became involved with the Cuban JulioAntonio Mella, journalist, political organizer and communist party founder. One night as they were walking together, he was gunned down. Was he killed by Cuban dictator Machado's operatives, as is still claimed in Cuba today? Was he a victim of anti-Trotskyite purge? Was Stalinist agent Vittorio Vidali, whom Tina was later to marry, involved in his death? Tina herself was accused of Mella's murder, but the press attacked her as much for her sexual freedom as for her politics, publishing nude photographs taken by Weston, and she was forced to leave Mexico after a sensationalistic trial. In Europe, she stopped taking pictures, and worked as a spy/agent for the Soviet Union. She married Vidali, known to be a Soviet thug, and he apparently was abusive to her. This part of her life is subject to intense debate. She met La Pasionara in Moscow, and went to Spain during the Civil War she worked as a nurse with an ambulance crew. Forced to leave Spain after the defeat of the Republican cause, she returned to Mexico, where she died shortly after in circumstances that were surrounded, once again, by scandal and mystery. She was apparently quite ill, but others have claimed she was killed.

I've read many conflicting accounts. This article by Peter Byrne seems to me to synthesize quite well the the dilemma faced by the biographer of Tina Modotti: getting the history right while doing justice to the amazing drama of her life. He points to one of Diego Rivera's mural panels ,often called "In the Arsenal," as a symbol of this tension. That's Tina, in the corner, looking at Mella, while Vidali in the black hat looks at her.
Frida's in the middle, handing out ammunition.

Monday, October 16, 2006

statistics

According to "How Many of Me " dot com, there are only ten people with my name in the United States. Woo-hoo.

"Dos formas del insomnio"

A friend told me that lately she is having trouble sleeping. Then she recited this poem by Jorge Luis Borges to me.

Dos formas del insomnio
¿Qué es el insomnio?
La pregunta es retórica; sé demasiado bien la respuesta.
Es temer y contar en la alta noche las duras campanadas fatales, es ensayar con magia inútil una respiración regular, es la carga de un cuerpo que bruscamente cambia de lado, es apretar los párpados, es un estado parecido a la fiebre y que ciertamente no es la vigilia, es pronunciar fragmentos de párrafos leídos hace ya muchos años, es saberse culpable de velar cuando los otros duermen, es querer hundirse en el sueño y no poder hundirse en el sueño, es el horror de ser y de seguir siendo, es el alba dudosa.
¿Qué es la longevidad?
Es el horror de ser en un cuerpo humano cuyas facultades declinan, es un insomnio que se mide por décadas y no con agujas de acero, es el peso de mares y de pirámides, de antiguas bibliotecas y dinastías, de las auroras que vio Adán, es no ignorar que estoy condenado a mi carne, a mi detestada voz, a mi nombre, a una rutina de recuerdos, al castellano, que no sé manejar, a la nostalgia del latín, que no sé, a querer hundirme en la muerte y no poder hundirme en la muerte, a ser y seguir siendo